Back the fuck up.

There was a time I told myself, when I reactivated this youtube channel, that I wouldn't look at the numbers, that it wasn't why I did it.

But that is easier said than done, because who doesn't want to be successful, or find their niche? 

I tried to change upload tempo, mix things up and whatever I could think of, to see what works. Why the hell did I do that? well because it's a great feeling to get subs. 

I need to put that shit behind me, or just nuke the channel - because it's ridiculous that I feel guilty for uploading demo recordings, that made me lose 2 subs - come the fuck on! I do the same all the time, follow and unfollow channels, and why the fuck should it matter to me? 

So this entry is to remind myself why it was I had this channel, and return to basics - which is play what I fucking well feel like, end of.  gain or lose subs shouldn't matter, unless it was of course because I changed the entire concept of the channel (which I am not about to) And it does actually blow my mind that more than 100 ppl are subbed, honestly I am. 

So basically I guess I wanted to say that I might upload a bunch of some thing in a period of time, but it doesn't mean anything other than I feel like playing that one ting.